Day 32  Standing on the ledge about to jump !

So the day starts!  It’s a Monday, first day back to work after vacation, three and a half hours a sleep and alarm sounding at 4:40!  I lay there until 5:00 really not wanting to do this. I step on the scale and I am up 4 ounces. Why I don’t know. Stress?  Too much salt?  Oh well it is what it is, I just have to hope it doesn’t stay. I find some clothes that aren’t overly baggy because my coworkers haven’t seen me in 13 days and I want to see if anyone notices. 

I grab my stuff and head out the door. God it’s hot already!  Driving to work imagining what I am facing for being off so long. 

I get to work and I  feel really hungry already. I am surprised how clean my desk is. My assistant did well.  I finish my coffee and eat my strawberries. At least most of them. Some were soggy and starting to turn bad on me.

Three of my coworkers made comments about my weight loss. That felt good.  My boss brought in breakfast sandwiches and I had to pass of course but I was feeling extremely weak and could have failed very easily. 

Lunch came and I had to go get gas and ice for my water for the week so I headed out with my bison dog and two cups sauerkraut. I went to QT o get ice and gas.  The smell of pizza and the sight of the food made me weak in the knees. Why am I like this today. Breathe! Pay for your ice and leave!  

I get back to work and start dreaming of hot fudge sundaes as I munch on my celery. Snap out of it Donna!  What’s your problem today. 

Drink more water. Lots of water. My office feels like it is 100 degrees. I am tired, hot and hungry and just want to go home!!

Oh highway 270 how I have missed you!  Not! I would love a chocolate bar right now but settle for five crackers I have in my purse. 

I get home and chill for about an hour and then we do left overs.  I had four ounces of steak and a salad with two cups veggies and five crackers. 

After dinner I chat with mom on phone for awhile, then went outside with Craig for awhile.  It is now 10:00 and I still need to eat a fruit.  Quick smoothie maybe? Or maybe I will just skip it. Too tired to care tonight. 

Hoping for a better day tomorrow. 

   

  

  

One thought on “Day 32  Standing on the ledge about to jump !

  1. You are going to have days like that .. but u made it through ….. I am very proud of you for what you have done so far. I don’t know if I could have been as good as you are being. YOU ARE MY HERO !!

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